Silly you.....dumb me

Its also been a long time i din contact with you....
Still remember tat we meet everyday in our secondary school time......
You always beside me...although some of the years we're not in the same class or same table...
But...I cant remember how we feel last time.....
I totally forget about it when ppl ask me........
So sorry to let you know about this,
So sorry that when you said you're out of qualification.......
In fact nobody judge you on this.......neither me........
When people tell me the truth......i really want to call you up to ask..
But my dear,
Is already past............
No matter what happened it had past.......
If i can realize a bit earlier..maybe our ending wont be the same.....
Your silly concern without my knowing make me feel dumb.....
I'm not suppose to know it?
You're not suppose to tell?
So sorry you're still the same but i look different......
I always thought you're the one who change but lastly the one who change is me.....
I'm sorry that i forgot all about you.....i cant even remember till this moment.....
Sorry that i am the one who dun have faith on you.....
Sorry for blaming you when both of us need to responsible on what had happened....
But I had promised not to tell you all this......
When you told me you want freedom, although is an excuse but i still accept......I should reject....not accept.......
I really don't know how to face you when we meet next time.....
If we meet again after few years....i would like to change the question that i need to ask you........
Sorry, i didn't do what i promised to myself.......
Why you keep your promise till now? Silly!!
Maybe i am the same dumb.......
I don't know you did so many........i really don't know.......
But,
I already forgot our feeling.......
Even call you up also i don't know what to say........
We look like movie series........
I never think that will become like this.........
I supposed to keep on waiting and waiting.......
Sorry i didn't manage to do it.......
And
Now i don't have the energy to do it.......
Sorry i really don't have.......
When SY told me the truth.....i thought he is lying.....
Now only i understand that why you still like 'this'........
I should give you more time....
Sorry because i don't...........
You keep on waiting for what??????
Mistakes can be resolve?
But once do wrong......there is no point of return......
I thought i need no regret after we end up....
But...
End up with you...
Already become the most regret things in my life........
What should i do now? what i need to do for you? sorry.......really sorry........