“THE DAY 'YOU' WENT AWAY....WAS THE DAY 'I' FOUND IT WON'T BE THE SAME"

今天在facebook看到了stef的一个short note。。。。。。
虽然只是短短的一句， 那已经足够写下了她的感受。。。。。。
我当然明白她的心情，
原来我也有同样的感受。。。。。。
不一样的是她的是‘人‘，
我的是‘心‘。。。。。。

“Especially you're the one left behind"
不管是什么reason也好。。。。
给人抛弃的哪一个永远都是失去最多的那一个。。。。。。。。
分开是疼的。。。。。
感觉不见了身体的那一个部份。。。。。
还是生命和心都没了一半留下在这个地球的哪一个角落，
你其实是在，可是我是感觉不到你得存在。。。。。。
说一只是我和stef有不同的看法。。。。。。
和她聊了一下， 我也感觉得到她的不开心。。。。。。
毕竟第一次分开难免会不习惯，觉得空空的，
可是也要去面对把。。。。。。。。
多坎坷的事情也要有勇气去面对。。。。。。。
和她说了满口的道理去安慰她，
但是自己呢？
却没有办反面对，去接受。。。。。
我依然是要难过的，
我既然为了一些很小的决定也感到dilemma.......
杨淑敏!你到底做什么。。。。。。
我也忘记到底以前我们是这么样相除的。。。。。。。
我能够做是好好的prepared我自己to look the best!
可是没有人知道是很难的。。。。。
哪一个可以说个我听是很难？？？
我只是知道难可是没有想到是非常的难，

NO LIMITATION OF amount的：-
1）ARE YOU OKAY?
2)IT'll GET BETTER
3)DON'T WORRY
4)YOU WILL GET USED

ALL THIS 4SENTENCES 不会让我好过。。。。。。。
当每个人都和你说this 4 sentences.....
你就问她/他 ：你到底能了解多少？
你能体味我现在的感受吗？
不管感受如何， 也要面对。。。。。。。。
最后决定是面对，
逃避不能让我好过。。。。。。。
要和不要之间到底是什么？
爱与不爱的之间是什么？
那么难过和开心之间呢？
从新在见面的时候。。。。。
我能接受你吗？
我也不懂。。。。。。。。。。。。
我只是知道 ：你的心理开的那一天， 就是我感觉到已经不会再一样的那一天。。。。。。。。

“THE DAY 'YOU' WENT AWAY....WAS THE DAY 'I' FOUND IT WON'T BE THE SAME"

****原来我和stef的感觉是一样。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

New Year & Happy CNY

Happy New Year~~

This is the first time i write for 2009.....

Though write it in Chinese...but too lazy edi....
that's why write in English is faster......

Recently so tired.....every time when thinks on writing the blog...
suddenly will feel sleepy.........

At the very beginning, this year wishes will be 'HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY'.....

Look easy but hard to reach on this.........

Assignment, exam and dissertation always keeps on running in my mind....

No time breathe d....even dun have single mood to talk.....

Admit myself most of the time also quite talkative but recently really doesn't have any mood to talk........

Moreover, there is something that confuse me......
hoping to get rid very soon! try my best! try my best!!! remind myself try my best!!!

Doesn't want to have any disappointment feeling anymore.....no energy to fight....also don't have chips to keep on losing....................




Happy CNY~~~

Feels extremely happy when reach CNY......
means there is one more chance for me to start a new life again.....

But two days before this, i had received a bad news.......

Best friend's mum pass away in an accident......

Firstly feel shock....but still can remain normal......

But at nite i know that there is no way to pretend....

An outsider like me also will cry badly.....what about the daughter?

I cant imagine what is my bestie's feelings......

Wish to call her but what can i said?

She is so tough.......i mean always tough....but the truth is she is just keeping those things in her heart........this is what i worry....

Ppl said life still goes on no matter what happened....but if this things happened on you.......can you said 'life still goes on?".

Is not happened on ownself and we will not know the actual feeling.....teach people on how to act always much more easier than we act it on our own......

This remind me a lot of thing........
If there is no tomorrow for me, i hope i will be honest to myself at least for today..........

Nobody can predict what happened in the next second.........

Shuld i do it? Its kindled dilemma.......

I hope i can do it........if not maybe i will feel regret for the rest of my life...... the same things will happened like before.........

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