不是不在乎，是在乎不起。

"不是不在乎，是在乎不起。"
今天从我前男友FB所看到的一句STATUS
突然我觉得我很了解他的心情。。。。。
有可能我是和他一样有同一样的感受吧。。。
我和他已经分手超过了十年。。所以我们所谓在乎的人一定不是比车拉。。。
现在的我们只是有同样的情况而已。

对于另一个他， 不是我们不在乎而只是我们已经在乎不起把了。。。
每一天起来都很想在乎他。。。可是能力有限度
已经好像没有资格了。
也许真的有可能是放不下，又带不走。。。变成现在自己走也走不掉， 留也已经留不住。。。

人啊。。真的很难。。有心无力。。。有力无心。。。最好的是有心有力。。。
但是现在我很希望我无心无力。。。那就没有那么煎熬了。。。
我觉得我了解我前男友。。。。他所面对的应该是和我一样的。。。
要这么说呢。。。那时是我对他不起，
虽然那时年资小。。可是我不能推掉所有自认把。。。
我希望有一天他真的能在乎的起了。。。。

虽然要我们变成好朋友还是淡淡朋友会很难。。。
我还是祝福他幸福。。。
毕竟。。。我相信他是唯一一个真心爱过我的。。。
如果现在我能认识这样的他。。。而不是当年14岁认识的他。。。
我很愿意跟这样的男生过一辈子 =）

aging?!! NO please.....T_T

No reason
I dont know why
haha
Just feel extremely happy today.....
Really....
My mood likes going up in extreme.....
haha...

Just to share with u guys the moment, i'm really very happy........
There is nothing important to being happy...

Self pampering, as long as I'm happy...laugh always...can i prevent myself for aging?
LOL!! i really think a lot of being aging...

Scary @@

Cloudy day ~~ Sleepy day (Zzzz)

Cloudy day makes my day....moody?
LOL, I'm on dilemma...

I love cloudy and rainy day but not too often....
I really hate sunny day when I hate being in hot.... but still some sunshine will be just nice....XD

Looking out from the office's window pane, I started my first day dream of the day....hahaha

I know i did think a lot but i forgot what had i think....(is time for me to drink the 14days challenge BRAND)....LOL

Is thursday today and tomorrow will be friday....=.=' yeah! is a crap...all people know tomorrow is Friday and today is Thursday...

I just cant stop crapping recently.....lolololol....forgive me....

Now i realize missing is a kind of game? could it be fun? There is no grudge in between us, the reason of being emo and hatred i think is because I thought i find my way to stop my missing......sighed...

LOL...what am i talking here? is really very rubbish!!! become garbage collector for too long...please forgive....haha

The end of today.....haha....

All right! A year from now? Lets plan this =)

Working holiday ~~ Working holiday ~~ Working holiday ~~ Working holiday ~~ Working holiday ~~ Working holiday ~~ Working holiday ~~ Working holiday ~~ Working holiday ~~ Working holiday ~~ Working holiday ~~ Working holiday ~~ Working holiday ~~ Working holiday ~~ Working holiday ~~ Working holiday ~~ Working holiday ~~ Working holiday ~~ Working holiday ~~ Working holiday ~~ Working holiday


Wish to make it on 2013 ~~~ What i lack now is....LACK OF BUDGET ( need save more and find a ILLEGAL way to dig more money )

hahahaha XD

leave msia for better sightseeing?

Today my mood is like "argh"
Can I go from away from Malaysia?
Working outside for the next few years......

Reason : Better sightseeing? Or to find better life style

I also wonder that, what am I if one day..my family, besties, dearies and country not with me....

I'm reach 25 years 5 months today.....LOL....quarter of my life had past...
I wish to do something that I want....and go to the places I love.

Please say NO to Singapore......haha...
Not saying Singapore is not a good choice...but too near....
Everyone go there....maybe once if i step my leg there,
Whole bunches of friends and ex classmates i can meet.....

Don't misunderstanding that I dont want to meet them up...
Just that i would love to go to a place where i will be treated as strangers =)

End year dreams ~~~ Bring me far away from now place...... XD

with no reason =)

Most of time, i'm happy for no reason

Just a bit of action that i wish to see and I saw! It will brighten my whole day long XD

Easy satisfied?

haha...no! I'm self satisfying myself <3

A day to remember, when i wish to talk to him badly...he appears just right on time XD

Trash Garbage Sampah Lover

I know i grew up a lot,
Did i grew older?
I wish I'm not yet T_T

I wish I'm mature enough now to handle problems.....
When problem occur, i understand that nobody can help me solve it...
Its still depends on myself.

People advice,
People teach
People nag......

But I'm the one who act it.........
I agreed that I'm a TRASH GARBAGE SAMPAH LOVER.
Just let me keep those TRASH GARBAGE SAMPAH a moment more...
I forced myself to throw it still in the end...I will pick it up from the bin again...

I'ts obvious that no matter what memory I had with those GARBAGE...is still remain garbage in the end....Trash still trash.....Junk is junk
Is make no different I clear on it.

Is really unhealthy to keep SAMPAH in my home for so long.....
One day...I believe there is a day....we can throw it together =)

Before times come, please let me keep them......

"Let it go from your heart not throw it from your mind"